I was feeling rather maudlin these past few days despite all my attempts to be gung-ho and positive. I am not quite sure the reason why. Perhaps it has to do with this whole auld lang syne mood around that the year is coming to an end and all that stuffs. Perhaps it may also be for the fact that I have my only surviving grandmother on oxygen support on full time now, because her lungs have kaput. Reality check, probably this is her last phase of her life’s journey. That fact has finally sunken in. And what makes it worse is that I am not anywhere near her where I can safely say that in her last installment of life, I was with her throughout. And that feeling sort of sucks big time.